IWSG and my little steps into writing

Hola and Hello 

Señorida Anastasia here.

The awesome co-hosts for the April 3 posting of the IWSG are Janet Alcorn, T. Powell Coltrin, Natalie Aguirre, and Pat Garcia!

Every month, we announce a question that members can answer in their IWSG post. These questions may prompt you to share advice, insight, a personal experience or story. Include your answer to the question in your IWSG post or let it inspire your post if you are struggling with something to say. 

Remember, the question is optional!

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April 3 question - How long have you been blogging? (Or on Facebook/Twitter/Instagram?) What do you like about it and how has it changed?

Ans: I have been blogging for almost eight or nine months. My first post was published on 27th July. 

I have been writing stories from a really young age. The first thing that I wrote myself was an introductory about me called ‘Myself’. I was in pre-school. The assignment was to write about me, my hobbies, family and class. Or at least, that is what I remember about it. A while later, my dad brings home a laptop. When there was internet connection, I would watch cartoons on youtube in it. And at most times, internet connection was not available for the laptop because we had a one or two GB limitation. At school, they had taught me to draw or paint on the laptop and that is what I did at most times. I didn’t find it really amazing but that was all I could do because there weren’t any of my favourite games like temple run, sub way surfers, talking tom or anything on the laptop. The school had also introduced Microsoft Word but as a first grader, I didn’t care about it. One day when I was cruising through the apps, I found Word. I had to type something and so I started typing my name and stuff. Then I really wanted to keep writing and then started writing some silly stories I made up. Eventually, I was writing poems and limericks. The first limerick I wrote was about Pluto. I remember being immensely sympathetic towards Pluto because the scientific world made it lonely. I was in fourth grade then. And before the laptop, I did write diary entries on a daily basis. 

After fourth grade, my life wasn’t the same anymore. I used to live in the K.S.A (Kingdom of Saudi Arabia). The pandemic struck the country in 2020 March. The final examinations were going on. I remember getting back home being the happiest because, they said that there wouldn’t be science and English exams because the school is closing. A couple of months passed in lockdown and stuff. My father had to move to a different place if he wanted a job. So, he sent us to India. I was back at my homeland after a two whole years. The last time I was in India, it was the time of flood and we quickly went back to the country after a two month vacation.  Months pass and my father arrives too. The whole life changing scenario turns me into an introvert that I slightly was. And when I’m sixth grade, I had developed an interest in horror films. I wanted to watch all conjuring films and whatever horror fairytales I found on youtube. One day I decide that I’m going to write a book called ‘Fate’ which was to be based on the horror genre.   

It wasn’t just the horror interest actually. As I had mentioned, I used to journal. My life had turned upside down. Socialization became a nightmare for me. I forgot to smile in a crowd. I tried my best to be that sunflower girl only to realise that it wouldn’t work out. I felt like a stupid. I was insecure. I was afraid if I’m just making myself a stupid. The only people I felt at home were only a few. All the rest of the world became unfamiliar suddenly. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to talk or something but when I met all those family after a long time, I couldn’t or I didn’t know what to do. I knew them and I knew that they knew me. But something had changed.

All that helped me out of this trance was writing. Now that I’m a bit older than I was, I guess that it was just the fact that I had grown up. And I grew up so much. And I mean it literally because I had even skipped a grade. When the school opened, I was the weirdest kid in class. That hurt me. When I was changing schools later, I promised myself to dissappear so that I wouldn't be a stupid. I was able to maintain that for the first term of the academic year and then I was me. Nobody knew me for the first two terms of that year and now a year later, a lot many people know me. I'm not saying that the whole 2 and a half year was traumatising. Hell no! It was also a door to self discovery. I'm the Marvel girl Señorida Anastasia. Marvel girl means, I'm a crazy marvel fan. MCU was the best thing during the pandemic. All those stories marvelled me. It made me laugh and cry. 

Corona went away and things started getting better. Now I’m not that afraid of socialization. I smile effortlessly. But the scar the pandemic had left on me still stays and I embrace it because it is part of me. That scar is the fact that I’m a Mega Ultra Pro Max introvert. Now I stay in touch with almost everyone. I talk heartily and greet everyone. Even though it took me one year to cope up in the new school, now most teachers and a great number of students know me. They know my name. I have made friends and best friends. They are the best. Sana, Nivedya and Fahmida… they are the people who I met only months ago but, it feels like we’ve known for infinity. 

Now I write a lot. My grandmother even argues that my grades went down because I write so much. I had to prove that it wasn’t writing and it was that stupid fever who haunted me down right at the time of tests.  

My cousin encouraged me to join a blogging community when I started this blog for a fun. It wasn’t just for fun to be honest. I wanted my mates to read my stories and thoughts on different things. He is like my twin because he is only one year older than me and we are in the same grade. And then, I find the Insecure Writer’s Support Group. And I’m glad that I listened to my cousin because now, I have something to look forward to and I know that some people are going to read what I’m writing. I was afraid if no one would read when I was posting at my first IWSG day and it meant alot when I saw those comments. This is the place I’ll express myself and say that Life is good!

I am not on twitter, facebook or instagram. I am not allowed. My parents believe that it’s the best for me to be on those platforms maybe after 10th grade or even high school. This blog, I started without their knowledge and they didn’t seem to be mad when I told them a while after. 

It is the time of summer vacation and so I look forward on writing some good stories. Oh and a Poem: 

Light of Summer

This moment may be the last one 

May it remain as the eternal sun

I want to hold on to this

It's as blissful as the sun's bliss

Thoughts of despair lurk around

May this always be found

Life can't be anywhere like this

Isn't this the life I'd miss

Earthly features of Rotation and Revolution,

Inscribes this evolution

The most severe however rhymes;

With the severe sunshine's chimes 

Moments like these are as the rise of the sun

Short lived and hurry of a run 

A sun kiss stays a mythology 

A sun ray stays a geology 

Sunlight and Sunshine aligns the clouds

Beats and tweets gets loud

Wind become a gift

Streams become swift

Spring hasn't disappeared 

For the flowers still appear

Leaves glittered by sunshine

Will you sunshine be mine?

I no longer need wine

Wines as uncertain as my life line,

Weather to be a sunshine or a dry cuff

Cuff to the summer's bluff

Delights and twilights

All lies beyond the might of sight

Wills on hills

Brings chills

The sunshine repeats not only for the Revolution

It leaves light for the evolution

Existence of a bright ray of light

Need not always be visible for sight

Star shine and burn

Man see and learn

Lessons taught by the words of a hummer

Always come from a summer

So, Happy IWSG day. Definitely leave a comment. I wish you good days ahead! 

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 Senorida Anastasia

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