A Friend Forevermore

 "Friendship is the most complicated ship if one sailed on it for too long. Eventually that ship will feel weary if it kept sailing in the same sea. Sometimes, you might want to change routes"

I'm so proud of me for writing those words:) 

Hola and Hello!

It's me SeñoRida. I am here with a new post that comes from the bottom of my heart.

How many of your friends have lasted for more than ten years? I'm only fifteen so I take that it's okay for me to not have that. You're and your friend is either really cool or really lame if you were able to have a friendship that lasted over ten years.

Life is not without growth and most friendships stop growing and they become something that we leave in the past. 

I am a stubborn person. I think that maybe with some time or confrontations or understandings, friendships can keep growing. I might do well as a girlfriend for this reason but I'm a bad friend. 

Okay. Relax, dear family of mine who just freaked out at the world 'girlfriend'😂 

I've never been a good friend. I've been terrible at it. 

Earlier this month, I was writing a friend of mine a letter that was silently screaming that we could be friends again if not best buddies. It said that our friendship could still grow---that we could still talk sometimes, share exciting news, be there for each other even if not always. But it became something like a letter of a wife found in a dead WW2 soldier- it's a joke going on in the internet right now but it's kinda true.

The letter was sent anyways. If it was written, it deserves to be sent.

The friendship really mattered to me. It saved me so many times and now the fact that it's not here to save me anymore just kills me. If there was a solid reason why it ended, it would have been great to know. But it was just another friendship that just stopped growing- it hadn't died but just stopped growing. 

I'm a bitch but not a dog to keep following it. 

It was pretty clear that I was the only one who wanted it to grow again. I thought it was one of those friendships that had potential to last a life time. I'm a terrible friend for thinking that. 

I hate to let go of things and I try not to care about things so that it'd be easier to let go of but I'm always that one arrogant guy who holds on. 

This is where the chant 'I'm a bitch but not a dog' comes in to save the day. I invented that chant in my mind a few weeks ago. I didn't want to put it in here but isn't it just awesome?

I no longer am interested in looking for that life long friendship because it no longer makes sense to me. Friendships are great as long as they last and maybe it's good that they just stopped after leaving us a memories that last a life time. For two years I had besties to whom I could say--

'Stranger things season 5 has been delayed again! What are they doing? Man, Millie just got engaged! She's married! I think Steve will die but I don't want that to happen'

'Oh my god- you're not going to believe what just came out of her mouth-'

'I have so much to tell you. It's just-'

'I told you so right then that-'

And many things that I can't just write here. None of them are here for me to say anything or listen anything.

"I asked if you wanted to be my friend. You said yes. You said yes. It was the best thing I've ever done"- Mike

No regrets ever.

There are new friends and there will always be new friends and old friends but a friend? Is there even anything as such? I'm not saying that there isn't. 

This part of life in which you act that things that matter to you doesn't matter at all comes with stakes. Stakes which are all relationships including friendships.

I'd love to hear what y'all have to say.

"Will? What is 'friend'?"- El

Excited for this. November 26. Best Christmas Ever?

Forevermore, friendships are always

Rhymes that keep their secrets will 

Unfold behind the clouds

And there upon a rainbow is

The answer to a Never Ending Story

Gbbye,

SeñoRida

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Rida is a fifteen year old girl who aspires to be a published author in the pseudonym SeñoRida. She posts in this personal blog and Instagram